Ah-ha!

An excerpt from my journal:

Day 14

Puerto Natales-Puerto Montt-Frutillar

My thoughts are loud today. 'What do I want', 'Where do I want to live', 'What do I want to do', 'How do I define success'- are all bouncing off the corners of my brain at a speed so fast I can't form answers.

Maybe this is it. Maybe I've finally reached the part of solo travel where reality gets whisked away from you and you start questioning your normal the further and further you get from it?

Reflecting back on this entry brings me to a place of uneasy calmness. I have no clue about a lot, yet the fact I have a clue about not having a clue keeps me tuned in and intrigued enough in my own life that I am also curious for whats to come next.

I've had about a million and one encounters over my time in Chile where I was proudly able to feel physical, mental, and even verbal feelings of deep contentment. Deep connectivity. Moments of 'Ah-ha!'.

This led me to ponder where the feeling has found itself back home in my life in Canada that seems all too familiar. Which leads me to ask- does this feeling exist within a space that is familiar and comfortable? In a job that you have had for years, a location of residency that you have never left, a perfectly perfected routine that has never been broken. These things we work so hard to find and hold on to so tightly may be what are holding us back from experiencing those 'Ah-ha!' moments.

I have not settled on my official leading belief on this topic, but I pose the question and thought publicly to open doors for possible thought and conversation.